To do or not to do

I have been accused of many things by friends and foes alike, but thinking is not one of them. The problem has been on the other side.....too much thinking.....

I have been told not to think too much....which I reason to myself saying as not possible.... The result - quite easy to analyse - due to the extreme confidence in the absolutely normal and otherwise common intellect , I land up creating situations that seemed to have had the perfect ability to solve by themselves, if it wasn't for my timely and absolutely unwarranted involvement!!!

My friends are probably telling me their issues for lack of a better listener and do not wish for my involvement as a part of their solutions. I must assure that it is not due to the lack of understanding or will power that I decide to react to what ever I hear , but a sincere hope and belief that I may be able to say or do something to help.

I have always believed that when we want something and want it for real, as though our life depended on it, everything around us conspires to get that done. And I must say I humbly consider myself as that catalyst that needs to trigger these pieces of puzzle to fall in place.

But I seem to stand on a crossroad of sorts whenever such a situation comes up in front, which I might add is quite often. I always have to stand and think if my friends and family for whom I am attempting to do this are going to like it or not. Will they understand my intentions??? My answer to myself is - Yes they will but they still would not appreciate my "Interference".. However the fact remains that this fear has its limits set at the failure of the whole exercise...Thats when there is a big chance of loosing these beloved people.

If your luck favors and you can manage the situation to the benefit of the aggrieved then, you become a hero, a life savior, a lucky charm, fairy god mother and all other synonyms that suit a successful profile.

Every time I get myself in the middle of such a predicament , my prayers are honestly for myself so that I can save my back side and my friendships and when God decides to help me, he usually is solving the issues in totality. I cant say I am not glad at that point, but the fear of failures scares me lot more because the loss will be greater in terms of loosing trusted people.

But nevertheless, though hard as I have tried, I cant seem to be learning from all the tension or failure that I experience every time and keep returning to the cross roads thinking - TO DO or NOT TO DO!!!!